Monday, April 7, 2008
It has appeared that I have suddenly come upon a time in my life that I didn't see coming. Maybe it's just that I didn't want to see it coming. As many of you know, our oldest son Cameron is married. He lives in Utah and I have not seen him for about 10 months now. I miss him more than words can express. Moving to another state and leaving a child has to be one of the most difficult things I have ever done. I am sad that I don't even have a recent picture of him to include in this post. Now that Mark and Makenzie are 19, their lives are changing and I see that sooner than later, they, too will be leaving the nest. I think my problem with it may have something to do with the fact that they will both possibly be leaving about the same time. I don't know why I am so surprised by that fact as they have done everything about the same time their whole life. As Mark prepares to leave on a mission, I swallow the lump in my throat that comes at the prospect of not seeing him for 2 years. While I know what he will be doing will be wonderful and he is so excited about it, I will admit that I have momentary selfish thoughts about letting him go. (Who am I kidding with the "letting him go" part. He will do what he pleases at this age....right?) Makenzie will surely be announcing soon that she has found the man of her dreams.....all my lecturing about her waiting until she is 25 to get married has been for naught. (I think in the next life I would prefer ugly daughters.....haha!) She keeps telling me that she doesn't have plans to marry the boy she is currently dating, but I have a sneaking suspicion that she is trying to go easy on me. All of this is compounded with Ragan's recent comment, "It's going to be so LAME around here after Mark and Makenzie move out and all I have to hang out with at home is YOU two". It seems we have experienced another rite of passage...that of becoming the lame-o parents. Here's to aging, your children growing up, and finding joy in your life at whatever stage you are in. I think I am going to be Google-ing "lame-o parenting strategies".